I Hear Voices... and I See Dead Frozen People

The small, cold room that houses the audit team is awfully quiet, so much so, it’s almost ghastly… The distant ringing of office phones and the occasional murmurings of strangers penetrate the walls of the cold, glass cell. The air, stale and unfeeling, freezes emotionless inside that room, freezing the only 5 living things inside it as well. “Nobody likes us.” “Ya… everybody hates me just like they hate you.” “We are invisible, ppl wish that we wld jus disappear”. They are an unwanted, welcomed by no one and discarded inside an equally lonesome room. Who’s lonelier? The team? Or the room? On a plus side, at least the lonesome room is air-conditioned at this period of Singapore Summer. However, on the flip side of the coin once again, if there are ghosts in the room, they will be cold ghosts, “冰山美人” or “雪女”(jap version) u know? haha. Ok that’s lame.

I hear voices… voices from deep, deep, deep within me. Distant yet clear. The voices can easily over power the murmurings and rings that are making me scared. Jus a mere effort from the voices, my fears are all gone. Gone. All gone.

“Grrrrrrrh~….*echo* *echo* *echo*” Now, all my fears are gone. Gone are the times of fear and what comes along is nothing but sheer embarrassment. The “voices” from “deep, deep, deep” within me have spoken… My stomach is growling! Ohman! Can u imagine the sound of the growl inside a near absolute silence room? I believe it echoed and bounced off the four corners of the room! Crap! Im never ever going to eat something that will excite my stomach in the future! (it’s after lunch when this happened, den my stomach keeps making the sound like it’s digesting or what…)

But luckily, it’s not uncommon to hear “voices” from “deep, deep, deep realms” of other ppl in this small, cold room.

A Cuppa’ Coffee a Day, Keeps the Caffeine Addicts Awake.

Ever since Day 1 a week ago, I’ve been feeding myself with all kinds of coffee. Free, cheap, ex, black, milk, white coffee, u name it, I’ve drank it. Monday to Tuesday sia. Monday coz it’s free, tues coz im genuinely tired, wed coz of OT, thurs coz of OT plus foc meeting and last but not least, Friday coz of OT too… till 10pm lor, dead tired after that… heng nice nice Feng Jie n her “friend”(actually her hubby) sent me back hall :D, and guess what? The very next day, which is Saturday, she’s flying to Thailand for holiday! And she actually worked till 10pm the day b4 her morning flight! Haiz… life as an auditor… 辛酸 ahhhh…

Kk back to COFFEE and dream on about Thailand.

5 days straight. I cannot bear a day passing by without sipping to feel the smooth beverage caressing my cold frozen lips, melting them the moment they touch. I cannot bear a day passing by without submerging myself in the chocolate aroma and actually see them dancing their way in its swt honey melody into my nostrils. I cannot bear a day passing by without savoring the heaviness of aftertaste letting them to end the show, my taste buds as e stage, their very last bitterswt symphony. Heh trying too hard to spit good england out of my mouth huh…

Anyways, the new “job” (my 2nd client company after last week’s) that I embark in today is at Raffles City Towers and since today’s the first day over there, the necessary papers arent available and ready for me to jump in to swim around yet… keke… So no papers=no work=no brain draining tasks=no OT=no coffee. Feeling a bit sad though…miss you coffee~~~ but I have a premonition. A premonition that tells me my dear old coffee buddy will visit me once again tomorrow~! It shall be an Endless Waltz.

So dear friends, stick out your butts and join me! LET”S DO THE COFFEE DANCE~~~

Starving Artist You are 14% Rational, 28% Extroverted, 14% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant.

You are the Starving Artist! You are more intuitive than logical, and are primarily guided by your heart and emotions. You are also very introverted and gentle. Of course, this does not mean that you do not have an ego. In fact, you are surprisingly arrogant for someone so emotional and gentle. This is why you are best described as a starving artist. You are very introspective and quite sure of yourself, as any accomplished artist is, yet your views are impractical, guided by feelings, and overly gentle. You probably find math, logic, and similar intellectual pursuits offensive to your artistic sensibilities, and you prefer the open-endedness of artistry because then you know you can never truly have a wrong answer. So really you have no reason to be arrogant, you big doofus, because the skills you value (emotion, spirit, art, etc.) in yourself are valuable only on a subjective level, meaning your arrogance is purely masturbatory. In short, your personality is defective because you are arrogant, introverted, introspective, gentle, and thoroughly irrational...posessing most of the traits needed to be a starving--and useless--artist. So get out there, write a few short stories that are allegories for the spirit, and starve! To put it less negatively: 1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational. 2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted. 3. You are more GENTLE than brutal. 4. You are more ARROGANT than humble. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Capitalist Pig. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Haughty Intellectual, the Televangelist, and the Emo Kid. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

I’m Feeling the Feelings of a Sponge…

I’m feeling e feelings of a sponge… if it is being squeezed dry so tightly tat it is super light-weight, water-less and detergent-less. In other words, means that im super tired now. But this PA is definitely once in a lifetime experience as it really shows and brings me into the light of what to expect in my future upon graduation. If im going to feel like this every other day, I can be sure that I will not last longer than 3 years given my maximum power of endurance.

Speaking of which, other than enduring the tiredness, I have to endure the excruciating pain my covered back heels are giving me. The back of my feet isnt that bad… it’s my poor toes that are suffering terribly. Wonder how many days I can endure this given my maximum power of endurance. Wont be too long, I must say. Im on e verge of breakdown already.

Back to PA. For those wondering what PA is, it is the abbreviation of Professional Attachment. So, in order to become a “professional”, my host company arranged a series of workshops, introduction and orientation. By the end of the day, I’ve successfully become a professional “hum” person. For example, we (50interns in all for this batch: 27 ntu, 10 odd from smu, a few from nus n e rest are unknown) are shown 2 clips about security, “educating” (actually scaring) us about infringing copyrights and how information is valuable and important to a corporation. Then, “the big 5 to big 4” story came, en*on, etc… so in the end, the professional-wanna-be becomes the hum-going-to-be.

Seriously, commercial buildings are built in a really weird way. Certain lifts only serve certain levels. For example, if im at lvl 3 and I wanna go to lvl 40, I have to change at either lvl 1/10/20. So for ppl who are 1)colour blind (the lifts are colour coded) and 2)memory deficiency, they are going to get a hell of a time. Perhaps staircase is the easy way out… Good luck to those ppl in depts that are at lvl 40~ Moreover, I believe that someone who has been trying to get into a lift for the past 20minutes may have to wait for another 10minutes (ok la… I know a bit “kua zhang”/exaggerated). You’ll believe it too if you are at the building’s lift lobby on any working days at 830/9am or 530/6pm.

Anyway, just before lunch, we are collected by our mentor/guardian/buddy to orientate us around our respective depts (thank goodness im in lvl 3… can chiong stairs if in a hurry). Im assigned to the financial sector (I shant elaborate as stated in para 3 :P). After lunch, nothing eventful lah… jus a lady giving us lecture about bank reconciliation n assets schedule. But there’s one thing I must mention sia. Lecture will have lecture notes one rite? OK, so we have received a few pieces of papers and with which we think that will last us for an hour and a half. She talk teach talk teach talk, and yes she manages to finish it within one and a half hour! Banzai~!

Banzai my foot!!! While we are happily thinking that we will be let off earlier than 530pm, she says “take a quick break and come back here” and starts giving out another 2 pieces of paper. Fine. Just 2 more paper… listen lor… and still diligently copying down notes and tips. She talk teach talk teach talk, and guess what? She starts giving out another batch of notes. Argh. This cycle has repeated for at least 3 times before she’s finally done with us! Super tiring Day 1.

***This entry took me 4 days haha…